Hi! I’m Joni!
I am Erica’s biological mother who endured much physical and verbal abuse at the hands of men while a young, unwed mother. I was searching to love and be loved, but that time produced more pain and suffering than love. I turned to drugs and alcohol as a way to cope. I was broke monetarily as well as emotionally. While I give God praise and glory for the birth of Erica, I did have other abortions. My life was spinning out of control. It is because of my difficult journey that I have a heart for you as a single mother.
I spent a good portion of my life running.
Running away from sin, fears, responsibility and life, even going so far as to attempt suicide. I am living and breathing today only by the grace of God. But God won– that is the cool thing! The Enemy – Satan had me right where he wanted me: in the darkness of his evil twists.
Once I became a single mom, it helped me find joy and light in life.
I even started to regain control, beginning with rejoining the workforce. However, finding trusted sitters in a “Project,” is a huge challenge. Finally, my aunt and uncle, who would later become Erica’s adoptive parents, presented a plan to help care for Erica. Erica would live with them during the week and return to me on the weekends. This plan started out well, but during the long weekdays without Erica, I became lonely and started to despair.
I cried every night, struggling daily with thoughts of inadequacy, depression, shame and guilt.
I felt like a failure not being able to physically and mentally care for Erica. All my best efforts didn’t seem to work because I was trying to heal using my own strength instead of God’s. Eventually I went looking for love outside of the true source of love, Jesus Christ, and I began to make poor choices once again. I ended up falling into the same patterns of abuse. I had hit rock bottom and it was at this time that I decided life was too difficult to live. But…
God WON and transformed me.
God knew me inside and out and loved me the way I was. God was the solution. After 5 years of intense therapy, I began to heal. I want that freedom for you as well! Now, I have a heart for serving single women through God’s inspiring Word. You can be strong if you hold on. The Lord of our universe has some really cool and amazing blessings for you if you cling to him with all of your being. God is the giver of life and freedom. He loves you so very much and the only true way you fall in love with anyone is in falling before Him as your Lord and Savior allowing His love to cover you like a blanket. Come along and get inspired! God changed our lives forever and He can change yours! Jump off your crazy train and let’s do this thing called life, together! Satan wanted me to despair and end my life, BUT GOD kept me alive to share my story, period. Satan wanted Erica to perish as well, BUT GOD provided a miraculous birth and kept her safe, healthy and so very loved by two mothers and a father, period. Satan wanted me to remain in the gutter of life alone and afraid, BUT GOD provided a wonderfully respectable and kind husband who loves me and holds me accountable, period. Satan wanted me to stay trapped in the fear of unrealized motherhood, BUT GOD gave me four cherished sons, period. Satan wanted my story to stop with me and not allow God’s healing grace to have a legacy, BUT GOD provided the perfect husband for Erica and together, they have my three precious grandchildren and the legacy of God’s saving grace will live on, period.
Hazel’s Adventure’s Living with Grandma
Hazel’s family is different than the family of her friends. Hazel misses her mommy because she is not living with her biological mother.
Hazel sometimes has a difficult time with this, but finds she is still able to live, love, and grow with the help of her best friend Jesus, Nontraditional and traditional families alike will find this a comforting, heartfelt story, and useful tool to share with all children and caregivers.
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